Sunday, June 29, 2014

Writing Day 06/29/2014

Good morning, 
Family, friends, fans, groupies and admirers.
Grab a cup of coffee or tea and come join me as I create a masterpiece of writings. Twisted and mangle as it may appear, happy or sad won't be seem to be clear. Just pack your bags for an interesting ride. The ups and the downs, the in and the outs as I speak all about different journeys of love. The good and the bad. The lonely and the glad. From young to old, the shy and the bold. A love Story told.
It's is Silent Stalker time.
Today is a writing day.
Wishing you Enough 
Love
Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

I Cry For Love

Last night I cried
Thinking of you and me
I cried for love
And you set
Me free
I cried for us
And what
Use to be
I cried for
The kiss
I still remember
That day in
The park
It was sunny
Your lip were
Tender.
I will cry
Again
Before it
Over
I cry
For love
From
Beginning
To
End
I cry
For you
Till
The
Very
End.
The End

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

If Only

It was sunny day
When we met
And I fell for
You
The first day
She said she did too
But
If only
Things were different
She said
We could be together
Secret rendezvous
Late night calls
Moonlit skies
I was smitten
With your lullabies
If only
My night thoughts
And
Sweet addiction
Could influence
Your heart's
Affliction
To let go
Of the
Old
To our
New beginnings
If only
My money was
More
You could
Find the door
And the key
To see your
To be free
You're caught
A terminal disease
Name
If only
Abandoning
What's real
I will heal
As I deal with
You closing
The door
Mi amor
I cry
Say
Good bye
To
My one
My lonely
My heart
My If only



Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker






Sunday, June 22, 2014

Dear life lesson

Dear Life Lesson

I met a young lady about six years ago. Single mother with three children. We went to church together. When her car was broke I would drive on the other side of town to pick her up. Sometimes on the way to church her children would complain that they were hungry so I was stopped at McDonald's and buy everybody a meal never thinking anything about it she was always gracious and she always said thank you. We would talk and on occasions after dropping her kids off at the house we would sit outside and talk for hours. She was young and eager to learn stuff so she was always asking me things and I would always graciously tell her. She was extremely sweet. And I enjoyed our talks. I always found myself as the teacher and her as the student. She called me her big sister. I would shrug it off and tell her I was always doing what just needed to be done. That there was a reason for us meeting. Sometimes I would be mad at God for bringing her to me. I didn't want to be a teacher or mentor. I just wanted to go to church and go home in peace. Man, she used to shout and praise God from the time I picked her up till I dropped her off. She was always grateful. Her spirit was vibrant and refreshing. God always has other plans. Our relationship continued like that until I left Colorado. I remember her asking me what she would do when I was about to leave. And I told her to keep her head up cause she couldn't find God's blessings on the ground. We kept in touch on Facebook and called each other from time to time. Today I was scrolling down my news feed and saw pictures of her and her family with the post that said thank you Make A Wish. Surprised and shocked, I grabbed my phone to search for her number. I proceeded to call her and ask her why was she thanking Make a Wish people. She explain to me that her 8 year old son was dying, and that they had just gotten back from Jamaica yesterday. I started to cry. And she said for me to stop and that she and her family was okay. She thanked God for the rest of the time that she has with her son. He died a couple of times but was still here. My heart was broken in pieces. She continues to say how much I helped her when everyone else turned their backs on her. I was floored. 
Nevertheless, she is still praising God. Even now. Knowing her son is dying. She praising and not blaming God.
She has shown me I can be strong. I don't have a reason to complain. My troubles are minor. And for that hour we talk on the phone I was the student. I say God, thank you for giving me her. Thank you because for once I was obedient when you allow us to meet and become friend. Thank you for opening my mind enough so that I can be a student.
Thank you for her.
Thank you for the Lesson
True Story

Love 

Deborah

Shall We Dance

Shall We Dance

I love you
Out loud
Your love
Is hidden
I desired you
In my soul
Knowing
Your love
Was forbidden
You said hello
And I was
Smitten
I given you
My all
You gave
Bits and pieces
The discovery
Unfolded
Delusional
About
What was
Not given
In the
End
Ultimatums
Where demanded
I lost
My position
As you wish
It was not
My decision
Through it all
I love you
You're forgiven


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent stalker



Today

Today


Today
I want to
Cancel
Hide
Hibernate
Disappear
Retreat
Retract
Recoil
Give up
Give in
Shrink
Withdraw
Into the
Only
Person
I Love...
Today
I need you
Today


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Amnesia

Amnesia

How can I
Forget your kisses
As I desire you
Still
Amnesia
Holding you
Breathing in your
Essence
Craving a
Future
Amnesia
Is what I
Want
If I'm somebody
Else
I can't
Need you
Want you
Crave you
Desire you
Love you
Amnesia
I just want
To forget
What it's like to
Love you
The pain is
Excruciating
Amnesia


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker