In My Blood

In My Blood

You're in my blood.

I need a transfusion 

From this delusion

Of the fantasy

That shakes and rocks me

And gives me the chills

I need a pill

To cope with my lost hope

Of not having you near

I Can't see

I'm blinded by tears

As they hit the ground

Dizzy, confused 

Lost the love I found

Screaming quietly 

When no sound

You're in my blood

Rent free in my head

I'm cold and lonely

While I lay in the bed

And toss and turn 

My heart yearns 

It's on fire

And It burns

You're in my blood 

And you won't let go

I say yes 

You say no

Chained to your love

If you must know

You're in my blood 

Happy and free

You keep me hanging on

Hoping and wishing 

When the reality of it all

You're in my blood 

But you no longer want me

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker 

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Silent Quote...

I am thirsty with love
Rich in faith
Peaceful in thought
And alive enough to
Live it out loud

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

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January 17, 2015

You cut me open
For all the world to see
I bled in your hands
Oozed out your heart
Flushed from your soul
Is what I'm told
My heart begs to have you near
Through the emptiness and tears
You broke me in pieces
Between my Wrinkles and creases
My true love is gone
The war on love was lost
I wave my flag
Another sad song

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

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January 24, 2015

You still weigh heavy in my heart
Knowing I'm no longer your burden
Giving my emotional state a way to deny
What is the fantasy of reliving what was
Beautiful and bold
The truth has been told
Of  what can no longer be.
Yet
You still weigh heavy in my heart.
Your residue lingers in the ashes
Of the forest in my soul
While the smoke disappears through the
Clouds as the rain flushes memories of
Us crashing down the rainbow
You still weigh heavy in my thoughts
Long after the love has past
Still

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

You Make Me

You Make Me

Sing with the birds
Float like the clouds
Fly like an eagle
Shine like the sun
Goal like the moon
Stand tall as a mountain
Brave as a warrior
Sweet as candy
Smile like Venus
Truthful in emotions
Naked with my soul
Forget about painful yesterdays
Dream about tomorrows
Honest with my flaws
Want to hold hands
And give you warm kisses
Pillow talk for hours
With fantasies and wishes
All these things
You make me do
Or is it because
I simply love you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

A Stolen Moment

A Stolen Moment

I look for this time everyday 

Waiting

Waiting for you to appear

Then my day begins 

I just need to see your face

Waiting

No words to be spoken 

Just to look in your eyes

And I smile 

Waiting 

I feel anxious and nervous 

Waiting 

I check my wardrobe 

Redo my hair a thousand times 

Before you arrive

Waiting

A quick hello

And have a good day 

As we pass in the hall

Is all I can say

Waiting

For a stolen moment 

With you 

Grammar Love

Grammar Love 

My love 

is not a question 

It need no exclamation

My love

Doesn't need a quotation mark

I can see you for miles

Even in the dark

My love

Won't end with a period

Its worth more than gold

I'm serious 

My love

Can't do apostrophes

Not when it comes to you and me

My love

Makes moves pass the words 

And grammar

It warms you like summer 

In the middle of winter

My love

Last even after I'm gone

Like singing the words

Of a never ending love song

My love

Is not just a nouns or verbs

My love's a dictionary 

You've never heard 

My love

Is delicious 

My love's a sin

My love

Is forever

While I write 

With my pen

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker 

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Lunch Break 12:31pm

Follow me 

To paradise

I will create

A heaven

For two

Surround it 

With sunshine

And favorite flowers

Just for you

Share with me 

Your passion

Full of heavenly delight

I will build us 

A future

Peaceful and bright

Bring me your heart

Filled with gold

I promise to love you

With my naked soul

Give me your loyalty

Your honesty

And truth

As I dedicate my all

With wholeness

To you

Give me your fears

As we lay quietly here

Softly I will make

Them all disappear

Give me your love

And all that you are

I will make you

My best friend

My lover

My shooting star

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

The Moment

The Moment

Beauty just walk in the room

And I smile

My morning will never be the same

You have brought sunshine to this 

Cloudy day 

Your silky colored skin makes me high

As I memorize the perfect outlines of

Your silhouette 

Tattooed kisses is what I crave on your neck

While I stroke your hair

Yes, beauty just walked into the room

The moment I see 

Is you

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

When I

When I

When I hunger

I taste a smooth thought of you across my lips

When I'm lonely

Your lingering aroma fills the room of sweet perfume

When I think of beauty

My fingertips draw a masterpiece of your face

In the starlight of the moon 

When I dream

I climb mountains getting high on your love

When I listen 

I hear the beating of your heart in rhythm with

My soul

When I breathe 

It is a desired blend of blue oceans and quiet seas

Wrestling with my emotional serenity 

Bringing me back to you

When I think of love

I always come back to you

When I 

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

Love Note to Self about You

Love Note to Self about You

The room is quiet with all my thoughts on you

I can feel you in the gentle breeze floating in the air

Your sweet aroma caresses my skin with the lotion of oyster pearls

My mind dreams of falling in love with you in cool sunsets

A warm fireplace and late night dinners is what I see

Slowly drowning in your ocean as I look I your eyes

I become weak to my own need to please you

Yet unafraid to expose my emotional flaws 

When you are not with me

I am caught up in turmoiled jealousy between needing 

Or wanting you

You are the melody I sing about in my sleep

As I sink deeper in love with you

In this quiet room with my pen and me

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker 

I Won't Beg

I Won't Beg

I won't beg 

I won't beg

Not anymore

My lips are sore

My tongue is weak

My voice is gone

I give up

You won

I'm done

I won't beg 

I won't beg

Not again

Just a drip

Maybe one drop

A fingerprint 

Would be enough

I won't beg 

I won't beg

But I'm in love

My soul is crying

There's no denying 

I need more of your love

Your silent whispers 

To hear you breathe 

But 

I won't beg

I won't beg

Falling to my knees

One more taste

Maybe a sip

If you please

But I won't beg 

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker 

Come Out

Come out 

Why are you hiding amongst the trees 

so I cannot see your beauty 

While the leaves blind my vision, 

I have memorize every outline of you

I smell your fruit of your body 

against the blooming lilies. 

Come out

Why are you distantly silent

Yet I hear the rhythm of your heartbeat 

Running aside the singing birds

Come out

Why do you deny me you

When I bring you my naked love

That only seeks the purest of your 

Raw innocents

Come out

Why do I keep your soul lonely

When I beg you to join the soul

That only craves the loyalty of 

A heart such as yours

Come out

I give you my all

Against every doubt and insecurity  

As I seek one no else but you

Come out 

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker 

The Only Thing I Have Left

The Only Thing I Have Left 

The only thing I have left

Are the memories of sweet buttered dreams

Of never ending days which the sunset stay for 

Hours glowing off the river as we sat by the fire.

The only thing I have left 

Is your the dancing in your eyes as you whispered 

Those beautiful words I love you across the winds

Ever so slowly past my ears

The only thing I have left 

Is the taste of crumbs that still hold my lips moist

From your tender kisses

The only thing I have left 

My soul disconnection to life with you

Of becoming my eternal infinity 

The only thing I have left 

Emotional uncertainty 

Feelings of shameful images of not

Being enough

The only thing I have left 

Are framed with yesterday's happiness 

Yesterday's hopes

Yesterday's love rescue 

Yesterday's skies so blue

The only thing I have left 

Is today's residue

Of the yesterday's memory 

Of the love I had with you 

The only thing I have left 

The Silent Stalker  

The Soap Opera

Soap Opera

The edge of night is coloring 

My lonely days without you 

How can I find the guiding light

That once peaked through 

The days of our lives.

Hopes of having another world

Completely entangled with

All my children and feeling 

Forever young and restless 

Has slipped from my hands

The bold and beautiful life 

I dreamed is now a delusional 

Fantasy lost in the hills of

Santa Barbara. 

I have lost my soul with no

Recovery in sight as I lay

In the general hospital of 

Emotional distraction 

Caught in torturous 

Illusion 

As the world turns 

Another day without you

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

1st Love Letter 2015

January 1, 2015

1st Love Letter 2015

Dear lover

On this day of the new year I bring you with me.
Opening a fresh beginning to my love for you
Yes, it clear I loved you then, yet
I want to love you more this new day
I crave the satisfaction of heart with my enough ness
I couldn't be complete without the beating of your heart
In my soul.
You are the sun in my springtime,
The shine in my diamond.
The hope in my faith.
You ignite my emotions to a romantic love story untold.
I take you with me this day, this new year.
I still love you more than yesterday
And my borrowed tomorrow
Taste my words as I breathe them inside your mind
Feel my affections running around your body
Covering you with my appetite for love
Only to awake again with you in my arms.
On this day, I bring you with me.
Another new day of love with you

I love you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Hidden (Passion)

Hidden (Passion)

There is a shining light inside of you
Autograph my mind
with your ginger sweet nectar
Carve your name around my honeycomb
Licking my honey filled teardrops
Let your glow give shadow to my
Yearning structure
While my head explodes
Words escaping my quivering lips
With lava burning verbs
So the Stars can spell
Across the sky
Help me find all
That I crave in love
As we connect in
Complete wholeness
I freely submit myself
To you
Allowing my passion
To become hostage
At your fingertips
My ignited hidden desire
Is unlocked and waiting
For you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

12-30-2014

12-30-2014

I understand
This intrepid attraction
Seems out of place
With my emotions.
Leaving a conclusive
Yet persistent desire
To love and be near you
Everywhere I go in
My daydreams
You invade the room
Coloring my vision
I am completely smitten
With your presence
Stirring my soul
Into a new dimension
Sunlight shine on
Our destiny
And I glow with you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

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Caught in this breathless moment
Reaching for exhaled air form you
Your love is a beautiful surprise
As I thirst for more
Beckoning intrepid emotions
To a heroic fight
To stay persistent
As I cast my flawed human
Existence of what love is
At your feet
Forgive me
Your love has me foolishly
Stunned with teardrops
Of scattered clouds
On a clear sunny day
I give you me as I only
Know up until this moment
A rainstorm sitting on
The cliff of becoming a tsunami
With you I stand on a mountain
Nestled at the top
Waiting as your eagle's wings
Fly me to Venus
Getting high off
Your scented feathers
While we soar through
Version of the purest love
Caress my soul beyond
My wildest imagination
And I shall love you
Always

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Why Does The Heart Cry

Why does thy heart cry a thousand tears of losing
The one that no longer loves me
You have shamed my soul of the emptiness it
Now holds
While my hand bleeds to embrace the love it once held so
Closely our breathing became even as we enjoyed the air
Share in our oneness together
My sleep no longer is peaceful without your pillow whispers.
Emotions broken and numb from the unspoken silent in my wind
Without you I am blind to all the beauty that lives upon the earth
I awake lifeless in my thoughts only a rare moments of remembering
What my life was like when you were here beside me
Who will love me now, says my heart?
Thy heart is scattered, torn and bruised as it wonders about
In the darkness of the dessert valley now known as my soul
As I sit I can smell my ugly sorrow circling my body like a sand storm.
My choice of my love seem to have been stripped from my reach
As I begin this journey without the one who gave me thy joy
Courage shall be my guide while I stumble to find acceptance between
the creases of your torn departure. My emotions shall recover to a new
Found interest, but my heart shall always belong to you.
Why does thy heart cry a thousand tears of losing
The one that no longer loves me

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Dark Of The Night

Dark Of The Night

As the dark of the night disappears 

Through the corner of my window 

You begin to fondle my thoughts

Which makes my heart dance

With a single melody 

You bring a warm burning 

Fireplace cracklings of old 

Cedar wood to my winter storm 

I cuddle closer to my thoughts 

On new beginnings 

And happy endings as I

Take this chance on love with you

I give way to the timeless hold

You have allowed me to sneak past

My own prudent state of mind

You have ironed my wrinkled dreams

Filling my eyes the twinkle of a star

Dissolve my passion with delicious touch

I take this breathless moment to

Blossom in your present beauty

As the dark of the night disappears 

Through the corner of my window

The vision of you won't let go 

Of my of my feet.

I stand wiping my daydream of 

Our early morning mist away 

From my tears 

Loving your shadowed silhouette 

In my memory. 

Spread your lotion upon my flowered garden

With your nourished fingertips 

While I peek at the sparkle of shooting 

Stars sitting in my quiet evenings

Completing this perfect stage

Of unimaginable heaven

As the dark night disappears

Through the corner of my window 

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker