Thursday, January 28, 2016

While I Wait

January 27, 2016
4:02 pm

While I Wait

I see eyes crying
In the distant stillness
I see hearts broken
In the present space
I hear healing Waving
In Crumbling Nightmares
I imagine sunny days
In winter chaos
I smell your essence
In breezy moments
I feel the beating drums
In my yearning kiss
I've never tasted love
Like this
I see you in my thoughts
In unconscious states
Warming my life as I sit
Waiting

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

New Rap Flow

January 25, 2016
4:11 pm

New Rap Flow

It's about to go down
To the sounds
Of me droppin
This pen
As it inks
To your instincts
And appeals
To the real
Who crave
The days
Of love songs
And old ways
When love
Was admired
And desired
That are no longer
Spit, spewed
Or spoken
As a token of
Bruised, battered
And broken
Human Hearts
misused
Abused and used
To excite the masses
With open rashes
In living caskets
Let's get back to love
Somethings so Sweet
With melodies and lyrics
Plans of commitment in it
Stimulating, matrimony
And loyalty
It's about to go down
As the mood fades to black
Sounds of poet ink
Silent Stalker rap

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Side Note

January 28,2016
10: 13 am

Side Note

You're perfect to me
You're beauty
Is all I can see
Staring out the window
Imagining the breeze
Whistling against your skin
Full of jealousy
Dazed by the emotional high
With selfish cupidity
Inexcusable probity
Chasing clouds in the dark
Flickering flames in my heart
Ignited in parts
Understanding that love elevates
From were we begin
Sunny days and counting nights
Infinite is my love
Burning to the end

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Mental Suicide

January 28, 2016
12:40 pm

Mental Suicide

Lately
It's been getting to dark
Green turns to gray
Emotionally my reality
Is cracking in parts
I'm broken and shattered
Heart torn at the seams
Tormented conscious
So lamented
Silent in drunken screams
Lately
It's been
Delusions dancing
With Illusional love
Elusive romancing
Shooting darts from above
Kill me now
Here's the gun
Load the bullet
Life is pointless
Without your sun

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Monday, January 25, 2016

Cleansing Rain

January 25, 2016
10:24

Cleansing Rain

In my eyes
You will always
Be my forever
My now
For when
Blowing winds
Turn to Holding hands
And making plans
As I begin
To fall in love
With your heart
Counting pieces
And parts
Of me melting
In the residue
Of you
Left behind
In my eyes
You will always
Be my forever
As the rain falls
Washing you away
From this day
To my dismay
You will always
Be

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Shut Up

January 25, 2016
11:11 pm

Shut up

I hear the rain
Knocking at my door
Begging me to come get wet
In the ocean of you
Shut up
As the breeze whispers
Sweet nothings in my thoughts
Leaving me aching for your
Remedy
And
Ease this disease-causing
Emotional unrest
I can't get rid of
Shut up
As you begin to echo in my ears
With contsant uncontrolled
Seizures that have me captive
Shaking and sweating fires
That burns lyrics of you unwritten
Shut up
Rings the bars of desire
And fantasies appearing real
I'm in love
I'm in love
Dammit
I'm in love
And can't stop
The flowing of repeated
Jolts to my emotional space
Hammmering my soul
With you
Shut up
To the yearning
Simmering on my lips
Coated with delicious
Moments of you
Sweetening the layers
Of unprotected emotions
Lost when I look in your eyes
Shut up
As I crawl back
to this time
This moment
This heaven and earth
This vociferous paradise
Called you
While l quietly wallow
In sybaritic splendor
Shut up

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Love Dies

January 23, 2016
6:01 am

Love Dies

Everytime you go away
You steal part of my day
Every time you leave
I'm caught in a world
Of make believe
Every time you're gone
memories erase lyrics of our song
Every time you take flight
Shadows hide in your light
Every time you come back
Warm embraces turn to black
Every time you say goodbye
Reality writes across the sky
Every time seems to be often
Seals nails in this
Every time you leave coffin

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Saturday, January 23, 2016

At The Altar

January 23, 2016
9:08 pm

At The Altar 

Sweat drips
Shaking hands
Tears find me
Trembling 
Standing 
With my forever
Saying 
I give you 
Everything my life
Could ever dream 
And 
Imagine 
I give me 
Naked and whole
As l love you
In this purest moment 
Moving to the perfect 
Shade of sharing 
Your last name
And 
I can't stop shaking 
Knowing 
My forever to find
Is now
My eternity 
To keep

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker 


A Feeling

January 23, 2016
8:39 am

A Feeling

Sometimes it makes me sing
From the depths of my soul
You know
The kind of singing
That makes clouds dance
Without the rain
The feeling that heals
Every thought and doubt
Blocking this abyss moment
Creatively carving
Sealed memories
In my emotional mind
Of light and darkness meeting
And
Finding comfort it's blindness
As your unseen wings
Take flight
And
Guides you to this imaginary heaven
Called love
Or
Is it
Just a feeling

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

The Enchantment

January 22, 2016
8:56 pm

The Enchantment

Unconsciously
You have me
Touching on your body
Whisper dirty secrets in my ear
Let your ambitions free
Inject me with your breeze
Quench my thirst
While I disappear in your shadow
Get intoxicated
In the enchantment
Of you fruit
You have me
Touching on your body
In slow motion
Inside my dream

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Side Note (Beauty)

January 22, 2016
8:23 pm

Side Note

Your beauty
Is only equal to breathing
I find you necessary
Can I inhale you completely
To fulfill my need
To keep going
I have to keep going
I need to keep going
I want to keep going
Back to you
I don't want to give you
The Wrong impression
But
I need you
To live

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Love's In The Air

January 10, 2016
7:10 pm

Love's in the Air

The aroma slithers pass the breeze
Rendering me hostage
As I stand waiting
For the moon to bring
The hunger I yearn for
And I smell the shadow
Of whispering bouquets
Circling my heart
Like
Volcanoes is spring
Burden by crumbling rain
Leaving the flicker of sun
Waving through the clouds
I explode in lightning dreams
Inhaling
Your existence
Swallowing my soul
And I know
As I stare
Gazing at your innocence
Appearing through your eyes
The trees begin to shake and wave
As the day counts the moments
Shared between you and l
Delicately Carving
Love is in the air

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

(Untitled)

January 20, 2016
8:18 am

(Untitled)

This is the saddest story
I've ever wrote
Thought you were my music
Tattooing you lyrics
In all my side notes
The making of plans
Fantasies in the sun
Picnics at dawn
Heaven in the sands
I will admit it
Naked and true
I was completely committed
Love Staring in my face
Refusing to believe it
I became caught
Trapped in a world wind
Or Is this just fallacies
Am I really all in
Depends
A battle we can both win
Yet
I have to let you go
Never been in love like this
How do I really know
If this is my forever
For worse or for better
Sunny days
And
Lonely nights
Color the sky
As I write this story
Lamented sorrow
My unspoken cry
Ink on whispered lip
I write
Goodbye

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Side Note

January 17, 2016
10:50 am

Side Note

Can't stand the rain in your eyes

And

The sky gets cold without you

And

Clouds move with broken pieces

And

The wind rages in tyranny

And

Life is without value

From pained insanity

And

The  false Vanity

And

Misunderstood

Moments

Masquerading in medicated

Purpose

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Change

January 16, 2016
9:22 am

Change

I see the universe
Inside of you
And it shows
Your ugliness in shade
I move into the sun
To escape the darkness of your fear
Into the light of dawn inhaling visions of hope
Resonating bouquets of endless possibilities
While becoming blind to your lies
And I shine
Roots planted in nourish soil
Feeding my soul
Believing I will grow in my universe
Seeded in love
And liberated
Without you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Saturday, January 16, 2016

Love Letter

January 15, 2016
10:05 pm

Love Letter

Dearest Love

I have written this letter over and over trying to make it perfect. Trying to express my thoughts and heart to you. I must admit I'm scared, but my love for you demands I commit me to you in truth as I know it to be in the present.
I need to tell you how perfectly beautiful you are. Somehow beautiful seems inadequate as if any word I choose could describe the light that shines from you.
I want to let you know I have become better because of you. I don't know how, but I can feel it in my thoughts and actions. Everything about me is different since you've entered my life. And it's because of you. I wrote this letter knowing I needed to give you my nakedness. You know, that part of me only God can see. The part sometimes even I don't know exist, yet it's there making an appearance for you.
I wrote this letter hoping it will reveal how much it truly love you.
I want this letter to be the hug I forget to give you when you need it
I want this letter to romance your thoughts when I am preoccupied with worldly matters
I want this letter to kiss your tears away and bring a new rainbow to heal your fears and troubles I cannot.
I want this letter to remember our favorite song when we disagree and stand in our corners pouting and waiting for each other to apologize.
I want the letter to bring you beautiful Bouquets of flowers when tornadoes appear to be on the destructive path of me loving you.
Let me say I apologize now for the mistakes and disappointments my humanness will bring you consciously and unconsciously.  Let me wipe your tears with my every word I write upon this letter.  I stand next to you willing and ready to give you my complete all.
Let me end this letter with me saying you are my favorite night and my perfect day. My summer breeze in my morning tea and I become weak and strong with every passing moment with you.
Let this letter speak the assurance of my heart.

Consciously committed
With open arms
Wrapped around you

Sincerely

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Change

January 16, 2016
9:22 am

Change

I see the universe
Inside of you
And it shows
Your ugliness in shade
I move into the sun
To escape the darkness of your fear
Into the light of dawn inhaling visions of hope
Resonating bouquets of endless possibilities
While becoming blind to your lies
And I shine
Roots planted in nourish soil
Feeding my soul
Believing I will grow in my universe
Seeded in love
And liberated
Without you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Eventually Naked

January 10, 2016
11:18 am

Eventually Naked

Eventually reality hits
Saying
Loving you was never any good
As I stare with blurry vision
You walking with your new love
Eventually reality
Screams
Wake up to the past
Our love was a season
As winter turns to spring
I wished you well
From spring to summer
Eventually
I take solace in knowing
Our Love was a garment you wore
to be discarded
When a new trend begin
Leaving me
Balled up and wrinkled
In the back of the closet
Never to be adorned by your
Fashionable emotions again
Eventually
I outgrew your suntan
My skin craved from
The sun I loved in you
Eventually
The Nightmare of you
Became
The afterglow shining
Between the shaded trees
As it erased my memory
Of you
At sunset
Eventually
I moved in
Different contrast
Between erupting volcanoes
And
Calming seas
But
Eventually
I learn to wear me
Naked and alone
Eventually

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

The Box

January 12, 2016
4:09 pm

(This Is Not Love)
The Box

I'm living in a box
Just outside the box
Within a box
Am I really free
To be me
And explore
What you choose
To ignore
In the air
In the space
You try to erase
Your fears
Of what appears
To reek
Of genocides
And
Alibis
Living in a box
Outside the box
Within the box
Of this hell
That I smell
From the stench
Of your scent
You created
Of raped
And masturbated
Dreams
Outside in the breeze
You disease
And sneeze
And spewed
Lies and residue
covering
Spreading
Infecting
The life
As you bites
And
Claw
Your way inside
Around the steel
I built outside my box
Where I live inside the box
Just outside the box
In a box
Where it first began
With my paper and pen
I color you
Pointless
Until the bitter end
Laughing and screaming
You can never win

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Private Thoughts

January 5, 2015
12:33 pm

Private Thoughts

My thoughts are to loud
To speak
So
I tattoo my words
Quietly
Across your lips
Leaving
Pasteled morsels
Slowly
Dripping
And stained
In your intimate domain

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

It is what it is ( Poetry Challenge)

January 5, 2015
10:41 am

Poetry Challenge
( It is what it is )

It is what it is
And that was the cost
When love left with the wind
Our love was lost
It is what it is
Memories sealed in frames
Yesterday's forgotten happiness
Today reality ripped in pain
It is what it is
That's what it will be
When wings of love are broken
Becomes the end
Of you and me
It is what it is
It was what it was
Dreams dissipate
When there is no love

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Saturday, January 2, 2016

Side Note

Afrodite Ruby
January 2, 2016
5:26 pm

Side Note

Could you feel me if I thought about you?
Can you hear me as I whisper your name?
Can you see me when I dream?
When you touch the rain do you recognize my touch ?
Tattooing your name across my heart
From the start
With each little part
Of my soul resting with you
Do you feel me
Dying inside
While I hide
In your aroma
Your invisible coma
Sleeping between the wind
And your heavenly clouds
Could you feel me if I thought about you
Out loud
Could you?

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Private Thoughts

January 1, 2016
10:14 pm

Private Thoughts

My spirit is exhausted and tired
Sleep seems elusive with thoughts running rampant through my mind
Catching me in lost stares
As I blindly glaze at purple walls
blocking my plans of unimaginable
Dreams.
I'm broken

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Side Note

Sweetly Divine
January 2, 2016
2:52 pm


Side Note 

I wanna feel the comfort within
The heartbeat of your own 
Pulse humming the melody of me
Loving you endlessly forever 
Against the sunset peeling 
Beautiful days into magical night
I wanna feel the comfort within 
The air 
As it cools my inhales breeze of you
Flowing in my mind
While I float freely from the clouds 
To the sea
Of you
And me
Till we cease to be here
Yet
Forever belong to the atmosphere
I wanna feel the comfort within 


Deborah R.  Shaw 
The Silent Stalker