Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Calling Me Back

Calling Me Back
March 31, 2015

Something keeps bringing me back
Back to
Sunshine blue skies
And
Laughter
Blushing right now
My happy ever after
Something keeps bringing me back
To the white sand beaches
Tanning my soul
Body on fire
Bronzed and wrapped
In gold
My heart has been sold
To the canvas painted
Musical notes
That's makes me keep
Running back
Coming back
It's only real
When it's in
White and black
Spilling
Over your body
Like a exploding
Orgasmic Volcano
Something
Keeps me
Coming

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

You happened

You happened
March 31, 2015

I didn't mean for this to happen
I didn't see it coming
I didn't see
You
Your uncontrollable thoughts
Of me
We were like
Friends
You know
Like
Laughing
And enjoying
Our moments together
I didn't see this coming
You spoke
I listened
I spoke
You giggled
I wrote
You dreamed
You know
Like friends do
I never thought this would happen
You know
Like
You missing me
Me missing you
Me needing to hear
Your voice
Like
Kind of like lovers do
But
I never meant
For this to happen
This thing called love
This one Love
This your Love
This I'm in Love
I didn't mean for this to happen

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Last Call

Last Call

I saved my best
For you
It seems
I lay beside you
Relaxed
Raw
And ready
To give you all of me
My secrets
My fears
My hidden me
I saved my best
For you
Knowing you would
Be my last
My one true love
My only love
As I lay here
Pouring my life
Into you
I can no longer
Run from the sun
Which is you
When I open my eyes
And breathe the air
That fills my lungs
With the feel of you
All over it
I saved my best
For you
Hoping
Wishing
Praying
Someday you would come
And release me
Of my own
Not enough ness
Not more
But not less
I saved the best
For you
Dreaming
Wondering
Saying
I will
I do
To everything
That I am
And will be
With and because
Of you
I saved the best
Of you
So I may win
To say I've won
To discover
To reinvent
To explore
To adore
All that you are
As we share
This silent
Abyss called love
Yes
I've saved the best
For you
Knowing
We
And I
Yes you
Deserves
All of me
The best of me
And
I give it to you
Without hesitation
Holding nothing
That would stand
In the way
To my loving you
Completely
Today
I saved my best
For you
In honor
And
Out of loyalty
That love has
Found its way
Back to me
Once more
"Saying"
Hello again
I saved my best
For you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Private notes

Private Notes
March 31, 2015

Behind the scenes
I love you
With careful intent
Heavenly awakening
Creep in my emotional
Heart
Writing the screenplay
To our future
Scripting page
After page
Acting
Out
Each part
Directing
This
Supreme
Scripted
Reality
Called
Being in love
With you
I write this
With
My soul
Emotionally
Connected
To my heart
As my thoughts
Swim
Rhythmically
In your ocean
This piece
This screenplay
This movie
This life
I write
Is for you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Love Letter

Love Letter
March 25, 2015

Dear Lover

Sitting here staring at this wall
reminds me of the space
between the lines
Are just a small troubles
We have in love.
Yet
If we hold on to each other
We can still be strong as the lines that try to separate us.
We are the glue that holds
Our building on a solid
Foundation of love.
I am willing
Create me to be the carpenter,
The masonry,
The plumber and the electrician.
Whatever it takes
Yes,
I am ready for my career change if it means building the rest of my life with you

Sincerely
The architect

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Because

Because I Love

I'm helpless it seems
Because
I'm in love with you.
If the truth be told
It's  strong and grabbing
Captivating and bold
I finding myself fighting
The temptation of melting
Sliding into heaven as I
Have come to know with you
Killing me softly with your
Tender lips
I surrender
My heart beats
With
The wonderous  moments
Of  us
I'm helpless

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

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My pretty bird
I shall hold your prefect wings
Flying in the sun
As we soar holding onto this sublime emotional heaven
Called love
I stroke your soul with my heart
Leaving my yearning caresses
Among the stars
Spelling your name
I shall shoulder your burdens to the winds
as I castle your beloved silhouette
next to me
Come closer
Our love can no longer wait

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Until Time

Until Time
March 17, 2015

Let my heart adorn thee
Touch me the opportunity of blissful love returned. You have awaken my desires to love again. I stay perfectly chained to your heart as I swallow the passion within you. Cast your beauty upon me
I shall wear you tattooed to my honey colored skin
Giving shine to the distant tunnels far reaching to eternity
Light the world with the sounds pretty birds singing  echoes across the forest.
How I adore you
With my shameless smile
And
I love you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Cant Stop

Can't Stop
March 18, 2015

I cant stop
It keeps flowing
In me
Like an exploding
Volcanic eruption
Oozing hot lava
Running down
The mountains
Covering anything
In the pathway
Of its journey to
Reach the ocean
I can't stop
The fire
Ignited
And pumping
In these swollen
veins of
Memories
Making
Moments
With you
I can't stop
Breathing you
As I pass in
This reflection
Of what I have
Become
Because of you
I can't stop
Laughing
Smiling
Needing
This minute
Turned eternity
Without you
I can't stop
Embracing
Caressing
Kissing
Touching
The embroidered
Shadow of your
Silhouette
I can't stop
Thinking
Wondering
Pondering
The reality
Of you loving me
So unconditioned
To my human Flawed
Makeup called love
I can't stop methodically listening
To my recorded thoughts
Playing
Our paradise existence
In my mind
What will I do
When our path finally
Meet
Because I
Can't stop loving
You.
I can't stop

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Untitled letter

Dearest paper,

I feel the beast of the pen prowling around my fingertips I shall resist the temptation to ink the world a new fabric of loving itself.
Let me blow smoke signals to the sky with my thoughts in hope that love will find you.

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

What I Am

What I am
March 19, 2015

I am not the mouth that speaks
I am not the ears that hear
I am not the eyes that sees
I am not the nose that smells
I am not the hands that feels
I am not the arms that holds you
I am not the legs that run
Yet
I am the heart
Which bares the love you crave
I am the courage
That shows up on dreary days
I am the hand that embraces oh so dear
I am the soul that washes away the doubt and fear
I am the ear that listens when you need
I am the vision on top of the mountain to help you breathe
I am the arms of comfort when you're torn
I am the fire in your heart to keep you warm
I am your all
And some things in between
I am the daydream after the nightmare when you scream
I am everything you ever wanted
And more
This is your conscience
You have the key
Just open the door.

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

This day

This Day
March 20, 2015

This day
I get chills with the feel of romance in the air
This day
With a glance I melt like butter on caramel cake
This day
I taste the love of you in my mind
Spinning like a carousel
This day
It's not too hot and it's not too cool just breezy
Just like you
I feel you
I want to be a apart of you
From Dawn
To dust
This day
I want to live in it
Smile and laugh in it
Don't care if I cry it
I want to experience all of it
With you
This day

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

See you

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(See You)
March 20, 2015

I see you
Just beyond the clouds
I see you
Aimlessly floating in the breeze
Raining tears of lost
Love
Surrendering to the storm
I see you
Hiding behind the mountain
There's nothing to fear
I'm here
I see you
Release your heart
I am your destiny
Your future
I see you
It's okay
I love you
I've been waiting
I have prepared a paradise
For you
For me
For us
Please
I see you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

A Feeling

A Feeling
March 21, 2015

I touched the space you were in.
You feel so sensual
I know
It's kind of silly
But
I can feel you skin next to mine.
I can hear your heart spelling my name across the oceans
Wave after wave
It's like
When you're not here
My emotions can't stop
Yearning to be present
With you again
I want you to be
The honey in your morning
Your tea in the afternoon
Your glass of Chardonnay
In the evening
Your pillow as I slumber
And dream of you
There is something so
Amazing about
Loving You
Completely
And
Unconditionally
Maybe it's just
You

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Wide Awake

Wide Awake
March 21, 2015

The words seem to regurgitate from my emotions so my head get some relief
I sit down basking in the sunshine of your love
Every moment seems to be filled with waving trees
Oh the sweet memories
Birds in flight
Candlelit nights
Words explode from my lips
And escape my mind
In between my rapture dreams
Of loving you
It's seems
I can't get no rest.

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stallker

Do me

Do me
March 23, 2015

This is how
you do me
You do me
Silently in
The mist of morning
To my exhaled
Heart
Yes
You do me
Teasingly
Tenderly
With the
Tantalizing
taste of love
While you
Caress
Cuddle
And
Cultivate me
Your
Tongue pleasing
Tongue teasing
Tongue licking
Words of whispers
filling my ears
With
Rhythmic
Beating
Melodies
Lyrically
Reciting
Symphonies
In my mind
Swaying
To your
Hypnotic
Erotic
toxic
Tone
Of your voice
I
Tip toe
Through your
Two lips
Capturing my desire
Compiling waves of water
Complimenting the ocean
I can't put out this fire
Yes
You do me
So well

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Jamalia Vows

Jamalia Vows

All In

This is not a metaphysical moment 
That has me standing here 
Before you
Believing you are my commitment 
My shooting star of endurance and truth
I stand here needing to cultivate 
My foundation as we grow 
In this love
I'm all in
Trusting I can give all of me
Unconditionally 
As God has given me you
I have become the light in my
Sunrise
I'm in love with you 
Casting all doubt and fear
Knowing I have you to protect 
This heart I give to you willingly
I'm all in
Because it is you 
My comfort 
My joy and peace
I am better with you
And because of you 
In spite of my me.
I'm all in
Saying 
I do
I will
I'm in love
With you
I'm all in

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker 


Saturday, March 14, 2015

Love Note

Love Note
(Touch of Japan)
March 12, 2015

Dear love,
Your skin feels like fresh spun silk
the webbing is so perfect
warm me with your silhouette smelling of sweet cherry blossoms
your lips are the tender pruning
to a  summer banzai garden
let me taste all your gingered juices flowing through your mind
The raw flesh of your soul
Captivates my senses
Leaving me intoxicated
My your emotional sake
You nurture rice patties in my
Heart
As I feed from your sugar cane
Flood me with your tsunami
And I will build you a paradise
Until we meet again

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Hands

Hands
March 12, 2015

My hands are on fire
My hands are burning
My hands are yearning
For a little love
My fingers are tingling
To ink your canvas
The art of your beauty
My pen's true desire
My hands won't stop
Until my masterpiece is done
My hands will write
Our love
Till infinity and beyond

Deborah R.Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Naked Dream

Naked Dream
March 12, 2015

Your rare hollow screams
Whisper to me secretly in my sleep
I toss and turn desperately reaching
To hold what I know to be my destiny
I ache with thirsty fever to climb the clouds of mountains to find you
Never wavering in to catch my heart's dream of unconditional Blitz
Hold on to the shadow that is soon to be right next to you
I come giving satisfaction to your naked desires.
Sweating as I run to be with you
I awake
And you are there
My dream come true

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Every Moment is...

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March 12, 2015

Every moment is...
Intoxicating
I'm dizzy and dazed
Stumbling in your love
Every moment is...
Electrifying
I'm hot and heated
Leaving me shocked
In your fire
Every moment is...
Peace
As our heart rhythmically
Nsync to the earth's sounds.
Every moment is...
Magic
Disappearing doubts and fears
As flowers bloom in between cemented walls
Every moment is...
Light
Sky blue days
As I float on your
Emotional calm ocean
Dreams
Every moment is...
Heaven
The joy
The laughter
Our happy
Ever after
Every moment is
Beautiful and warm
Hidden in the calm
Centered stillness
In the eye of the storm
Every moment is
Musical
Swinging me
Rocking me
Laying me
To the symphony
We share
Every moment is...
You and me
Us and we
Together in love
Where we choose to be
Every moment

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Until

Until...
March 7, 2015

Haven't had the desire to write in days.
My motivation has laid down to rest in a dark forest.
Bringing sad tear drops washing away my inked pen.
My hand trembles with a aching throb of lost words.
My mind is empty without your smile.
My arms are weak and cold without you to hold me
My lips are sealed with speechless
Kisses
You are the heart I know
You are the beauty I need
Slipping away
Fading
You decided it was time
The decision to move to the sky
Alone
I stand waiting
Weeping
But I know you must go
I shall miss and love you
Always

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

A Day Of Laughter

A day of Laughter
March 3, 2015

You make me laugh
And my heart sings at the sight of you
With the dawn of sunlight
I can feel your lips
On my back as you
Whisper hello
Your arms fill me with sound
Of sweet summer
Yet you're not here
You make me laugh
Knowing tomorrow
Will bring you back to me
With a new fresh scented
Garden in full bloom
Until then
I shall sit and laugh
Thinking about you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

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March 1, 2015

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You follow me with a quiet fever
Never to appear openly seen
Yet
You follows me with the taste
Of bittersweet fruit growing
In what once was paradise
To your dreams
I reach to grab your majestic emotions simmering like title waves
Along the shores
You evaporate when I get close
Still
You follow me
Living my every breath
Exhaling time spent in my shadows
You follow me as I search my own true definition of secrets regrets and beautiful ending
You wait behind the murky window
To my existence holding onto
The ashes of my past
Why
I am but a mere mortal growing in to this lonely soul which is mine to conquer
Let go of our unbalanced experience of scattered dust of days gone by.
Now that you have my attention
 A part of me still
Lingers with you
As you follow me

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Loveless

Loveless
March 1, 2015

Love doesn't live here anymore
It left me some days ago
Streaming a list of distant clouds
Covered in secret lies
Lost wishes hiding between
Broken dreams and untamable fantasies
My wandering heart is torn
From the thorns in your garden
Stuck in to the winter mountain
Where my soul as grown cold
To the emotional baggage I carry
As I wrestle with the truth
Of being abandoned
Heavy are my shoulders
To the pieces of my crescent moon
Amid the dark ruins in my mind
The promise of happy ever after
Seemed swallowed in emptiness
As I crave your touch again
Please come back to me

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker