Let's Color

Let's color
Let's color me green
for growing more
In love
Yellow for the road
I travel is bright
Let's color
Orange as the leaves
Changes like fall with me
Blue as the sky
I hope to fly
Let's color
Black for bold
As the shadow
Where ever you go
I will follow
Let's color
Color in white
Clear as the stars
Both near and far
Let's color
Our love
All the colors
Of life
So full
Of promise
Hope
And
Truth
Color me
You

I'm Up

I'm up ready to meet the sunrise.
Coffee in hand

peeking through the cracks between the birds singing and dreaming of you.
I'm up
Anticipating the new future that belongs to me.
I'm up
loving the skin I'm in and wearing it like a the first day of spring.
I'm up
Ready to invite and excite my new friendships and challenges as I grow in this day
I'm up
Ready for laughter and tears
Which comforts mind
I'm up
Waiting for you.
I'm up

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Water

I bathe in you
You cleanse me
I bask in your wetness
As I swim in your ocean
I sail across your peaceful sea
Finding that moment to
Wade in
You're my running stream
In summertime
My aches and pains are washed
Away through your rain
You quench my every thirst
I need you to live
You're my water

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

I Cry

You had me from our first encounter
My eager soul running to be captivated
By your essence
Your courageous spirit
Sought my brokenness
Loving me
Majestically cured my
Lonely desire
To be shakened
By love's embrace
I am better since that day
Sharing your imperfect humanness
Allow me to be open to my
Own dejected flaws
Yet
We are perfect in
Our love to
Each other's
I can see the wonders
Of ordinary things
Like dandelions
Having seen your
Beauty
I steal a little of heaven
When I kiss you
Paradise becomes closer
With every touch
Of you
I was blinded through
Bitterness and shame
Until you showed
Me tranquility
In your tender
Embrace
And because of this
In you
My heart was healed
Thus
I cry

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Catch My Breath

Some days I look at you
And
Can't catch my breath
Here I go
Loving the moment
I'm in.
Reflections of paradise
In Your eyes when you
Glance my way
Visions of heaven
In my mind
Beauty is
Your name
As I peek through
The kitchen window
At your lips
I am touched
By your kiss
My Compassion rips me
Open
As I smile
At the sparkle
In your eyes
The raze of sun
Toning and glowing
Across your face
I fall in love
With you again
For the first time
Today
Blitz

fills my heart
Overflowing, dripping
Every piece of flesh
That is yours
Somes  days
I look at you
And
I can't catch my
Breath
All I can do
Is love you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Between the Cracks

You have brought love back to me when I thought all was lost. I grow and blossomed through the cracks of heartbreak and loneliness as you love.
With all my heart,
Thank you.
Deborah

You Are

You are all I ever see
You are my today
You are my repeat
You are my yesterday
You are my song
My summer rain
The bandage
For my pain
You are my love
My life
You are my wings
As I take flight
You are my moon
My quiet time
In noon
You are my air
My content stare
You are my need
My want
My greed
You are my what
I feed on
I love you
Right or wrong
You are
It all comes down to this
That touch
Your kiss
You are
My one and only
You are all that and more
You are
The one I adore.
You are

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Torn

I'm torn
Pulling and tugging
Which way do I go
Like roses with thorns
I hold on to the stem
Being pricked and plucked
I bleed from the touch
Of wanting to hang on
Torn
Like a good morning rain
You come and nourish
My soul
And
I grow and blossom
Then here comes the storm
Torn
I'm battered and bruised
Just a tad bit confused
I'm torn
I'm alive
I will survive
I will heal
I will grieve and mourn
The cruelties of life
I'm torn


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

In the Crossroad

My mind is tired and my body is weary. 

Not sure what to do or where to go. 

I'm at the crossroad standing in the middle of the street 

lost as to which direction to go.

I want to sleep until it is over. 

Waking to find that all has been completed, fixed and healed. 

No more pain and worries. 

I want to be free of all uncertainties and doubts.

Being able to have you by my side staring in our future. 

However, life has me that the crossroads gasping for air. 

Unable to come to grips with what's life is snowing me. 

Abandon by my inabilities to see or accept my roll for myself. 

I am lost in the crossroad.

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c) 2014

Celebrity Status

The key to being a superstar celebrity like myself is knowing I was already born a Diva, a living Legend and an Icon in my own mind.

No Red Carpet Needed.

You're Welcome.

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c)14

Is What I Do

Loving you
Is what I do.
I was designed
To make you happy
Just you and I
Peaceful in our paradise
Holding on
To what others can
Never find
Love
Love is you
Love is me
Love is us.
That what I was
Born to do.
Just love you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Jealousy

I will not  live my life in the closet because of your insecurities 

I will not  live with no friends because of your suspicions

I will not live in loneliness to be your lover

I will not hide me from the world because of your selfishness 

I cannot hold my breath so you can breathe.

I will not loose me to have you

I will not be caged so you can be free

I can not heal your

Jealousy

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c)2014

What My In Love Feels Like

Well mine feels like I have butterflies in my stomach. I feel high all the time when I think of her. I miss her when she hasn't even left the room. Your inner most feelings seem to pour out of you before you can catch your words. I think about her every single moment I'm awake. Holding your hand sometimes overwhelms me with emotions I want and do cry sometimes cause it's to much. I keep shaking my head thinking I will wake up from this dream. My heart is fluttering as I write you this note. Love makes you want to do better. Love make you crazy and sad. But it's always leaves you satisfied, whole and complete and needy. I open myself up to be vulnerable so I can get closer to her. You start to imagine you and your person in the future doing things and growing old with them. You can see it without closing your eye.

That's what my being in love loves like.

Trying to sneak looks at them when they are not looking because you think they are the most beautiful person you ever set eyes on. Yeah, she's fine. 

That's what my in love feels like.

Can't get enough of it.

What my in love feels.

It feels like heaven

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c)2014

Remember

Remember I love you even if I don't say it often.
I don't mean to take you for granted even though it appears that way.
It is never my intent to allow you to feel anything less than what you are.
 And you are amazing.
You are a dream and a miracle.
Uniquely you and beautiful. 

Yeah, I'm glad to have you in my life.

As I smile to myself I think of all the things we have been through together.
All the lessons I learned from and with you. Thanks for sharing you with me.

Remember I love you even I don't say it often

Your friend

Deborah 

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c)2014

Don't think about it

Don't think about missing her
Think about when she's here
Don't think about the sweet kisses
Soon you'll make her your Mrs
Don't think about
Her loving you
Without you she's blue
Don't about about
Her pretty face
Don't think about
How she taste
Don't think about
Her soft skin
Don't think about
That's your girl
Don't think about
Giving her the world
Don't think about it
To much
To much
To much
Think about
She was created
Just for you
Don't think about it
Just let it be
Her love for you
Is all she
Can see

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Raw Emotions

Stuck in a desparate
Time zone
Chained to your love
Bonded to your soul
Fulfilled by your body
Neglected by your presence
Drained by your pain
Delighted with your taste
Encouraged by your laughter
Humbled when you decided to
Love me
Abandon when you leave
Exploited when you speak
My name
Torn when you cry
Helpless when you hurt
Condemned when you're insecure
Exhausted by your neediness
Vulnerable with your truth
Tranquil while you sleep
Stronger when you're in
My arms
Possessive when we're in
A crowd
Emotions running wild
I'm a animal when it comes
Come to you
I can't let go
My existent
In you


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Easter Morning

The birds are singing outside my window.

The sweet sound of morning is almost here

I shall stay awake

And watch the sunrise.

Morning dew will set

In the trees and grass

As I sit on the porch 

And wait for daybreak

I will be at peace.

Welcome to today

Love 

Deborah

In My Head

I caress your mind
Tell you a secret with
A kiss
To the back
Of your neck
Holding onto
Your waist
Melting you
In my dream
Speaking in silence
Screaming with your stare
Me slipping
Across your essence
I'm lost in
I imagine
Swimming in your
Ocean
Bathing in your
River
Lingering in
Your
Thoughts
As we dance
Slowly
Yet Eagerly
From
Room to room
In the house
Then
Out in the yard
Pulling you closer
Playing your piano
Tasting your fruit
Riding your emotional
Rhythm
I awaken
Sweating
Try to catch
My breath
And I realize
It's all in my head

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Love Makes You

Love makes you
Smile
Love makes you
Loves makes you
Heal
Love makes you
Love makes you
Beautiful
Love makes you
Love makes you
Whole
Love makes you
Loves makes you
Hope
Breathe and dream
Love makes you
Love makes you
Wonder and grow
Love makes you
Love makes you
Bleed
Give you
A
Mental disease
Love makes you
Love makes you
Want and need
The stars
And the moon
Let get married
Real soon
Love makes you
Love makes you
Feel Rich
When you're poor
The one you adore
Love makes you
Want to keep
Them forever
All these things
All these days
Accept
When love is gone
Love makes you
Cry

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Unstable

Life is passing by quickly
So briskly
It will blows you over
Feel the breeze
Prepare for the freeze
Be sure to take cover
It will make you stumble
Tornadoes  and volcanoes
Hear the spirit  rumble
Tsunami and hurricane
Deep in your veins
Will wash you clean
No matter the season
No rhyme or reason
It will make you
Unstable


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Everytime I think of you I see a piece of heaven

Discovering Self

As life changes
So shall I
Learning
And
Teaching
Holding fast
But
Letting go
Embracing
It
All
No matter
How
The outcome
I surrender
To life
I
Die
So
I may
Live

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Call Me Foolish

Call me foolish
For giving you
All of me
Instantly
Yet reluctantly
Easily
Call me foolish
Staring hazingly through your
Brown eyes
Teasing me
Fueling the desires
Of my naive mind
Call me foolish
Seducing my body
With your magical touch
Call me foolish
While I
Reach and grab
You near to me
Trying to breathe
Into your mysterous soul
Call me foolish
For ever believing I
Had a chance at this
Wonderous fantasy
Playing out reality
As I crash and burn
Knowing I don't have
You for my own
Call me foolish
Remembering the aroma
Of our Lingering full moon
Love making
Depleting all my doubts
And fears of ever being
Abandon again
Once morning
Arrived
Call me foolish
Permissing you to
Wipe my tears
Knowing you are 
The cause
Of these moment missed 
By your trails
Of inattentive
Selfish emotional
Arrogance
But I love you
I want you
I need you
Still standing
At the curb
Foolishly
Waiting for
Your return
Call me foolish
No more

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Love Note 1:41pm

Dearest love
Let these words of love reflect in my actions about you.
My love for you is simple. I desire my actions to always say I love you and I choose you yesterday to be a part of my life.

I love you
Signed
Deborah

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Bound

I am bound to the heart I said I would love forever.  Chained to the promise of your choice to love me with the action I have yet to experience

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Is My love Enough

Is my love enough
For you to see me
Is my love enough
To set you free
Is my love enough
To here my cry
Is my love enough
To give you wings to fly
Is my love enough
To keep you here
Is my love enough
Calm your fears
Is my love enough
For your life
Is my love enough
To be your wife
Is my love enough
I'll say it again
Is my love enough
To last to the end
Am I enough?

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

I'm Ready

I've prepared for
This
Moment
Where

I would
Elude to my
Softer
Sweeter
Seductive
Succulent
Sexual
Sensitive
Serene
Self
With only
You
I'm ready
Take me
I'm yours

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Love's Betrayal

I woke up thinking
How much I loved you
I woke up feeling
How much I needed you
I woke up seeing
My life with you
I trusted you
With my heart
I trusted you
With my feelings
I trusted you
With my secrets
I trusted you
With my thoughts
I woke up to you
Believing my love
Could sustain us
Contain us
Complete us
Increase us
And you
Woke up
To
Someone else.
Love's betrayal

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

The Goyens

I awaken thinking how much I loved you
As I glanced over at your sleepy face.
How much joy you have brought to me.
As I reach to touch you face
Your eyes open with that smile
Which greets me saying good morning
I'm so happy to be here again with you.
I kiss you
You snuggle closer to me.
Dazed and excited
Our love as lasted one more day
Happy anniversary
I love you

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

If I Could

If I could only scream, maybe that would help.
If I could run to your rescue, maybe you wouldn't be lost.
If I could wave a magic wan, I would make it go away.
If I could hold you, maybe it would stop your tears.
If I could take your pain, maybe you would heal.
If I could see inside your darkness, I would bring you light.
If I could wish it away, I'd make it go away
If I could pray it done, I would have prayed 10,000 prayers.
If I could
It would already be done
But I can't
So I suffer while
You suffer
If I could only
Free you
From your
Agony
Only you know
If I could.
I would.
But I can't

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Lost

Today we, by that I mean one of my best friend's lost their mother. My heart is sad. Sad because my friend has lost someone they love. Sad because I lost I lost someone I loved and knew as well. It makes you ( meaning me) realize we are not forever. I can't wish it different or a do over. It's done. Finish.
I shall cry for my friend in the silents of my room and be brave as I live out loud as she mourns her mother. I will reflect on times her and all of us spent together laughing. We have to keeping living through the pain and tears. Live through the lost and the memories, good bad or indifferent. We still have to live.
Hold on the life that is still here and present. Our here and now. The pain will leave us in time. We will become free again.

(T)  Things
( I ) I
( M ) Must
( E ) Earn

May peace and blessings find my friend in her time of need.
I shall continue to pray.

Deborah

Love Note 11:12 pm

Hello my sweetest love,
I'm home and going to try and write something to clear my head.
I hope your day was enough to fill your heart for three life times as I think of the many wonderful things about you. I missed you today as I do whenever you are away from me. Thanks for loving me as you do.
I only hope I can bring many pleasures and sunshine to your life as your have given me.

Talk with you later.

Deborah

After thought

I keep
having this vision of
you and I
That night
That morning
The smell
The kiss
The touch
The whispers
The moans
Your screams
My dreams
Of music
And
Wine
Skin to skin
Sweating
Grabbing
Holding
Never wanting
to let go
Only for it
To end
Later
To be my
After thought.

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Love Note 11:53 pm

Can I hold your hand and kiss your lips.
As you walk away I touch your hips
The magic I feel your warm embrace
You look back at me with a smile on your face
My midnight breeze
My summertime glare
My One True Love
My Arkansas Silent Love Affair

I love you
Deborah

Phone call 10:27am

Her: hi
Me: hey baby
Her : asking me for something
Me: I don't know about that one baby
Her: You always give me what I want, always
Me: Not this time baby
Her: You always give me what I want Debbie
Me: Hmph, good luck with that one
Her: She giggle at me. Says I always get what I want from you
And hangs up the phone
Me: Blank stare at the phone.

Good morning world

Woke up with a lot on my mind.
Not really sure how to put it all down on paper. I have decided I would start doing videos for moments like these when I so much to say out loud but can't type fast enough to keep up with my thoughts. Seems the more I continue with this blogging stuff the more I feel I need to be raw and real with who I am. It's like it's oozing out of my pores. I feel like I get a little closer to knowing me. I'm not sure if that makes any sense. But I'm giving you(the world)the real me Finally. Somehow I decide I wouldn't care about you(the world) judging me for the first time in my 52 years of living on this earth. It's a big risking step trying to be complete in my own oneness. This all seems corny and rather Pollyanna as I write it all down but whatever. I keep stepping outside of me looking at me saying come on Debbie really?
All this just because you fell in love with someone? You've been in love before. What makes her different from the others?  Somedays it's too funny the thoughts and feelings that come to my head.
Anyway it's coffee time and my 10 day green smoothie book just got here in the mail yesterday, I might want to try and read it before I embark on this new cleansing thing I'm trying to do. I know I'm doing way to much these days.
See ya soon.
Deborah

Dallas

Being in Dallas caught me off guard. Use to live there back in the 90's and I loved it then. I fell in love with it again this weekend. Although the traffic was crazy and the people drive it it was even crazier. I Really would love to go back. The little woman and I talked about it but I don't believe she can leave her peace of the small town. This whole weekend was eye opening. I know I don't want to stay here in Little Rock, Ar. It's driving me crazy. It's to small and can't seem to find a better or even different job with decent pay. Frustrated. When we where in Dallas I could see the endless possibilities. All I had to do is reach out and grab what I wanted cause it would be at my fingertips.
Really would love to start fresh with my baby. This would be a big step for her and myself. I shall start planing and sacrificing. Let it begin now. Sacrifice is hard for most people to do these days. We have begun a greedy, selfish society. We never want to give up anything but I want it all. And most times than often we don't want to work for anything but are content to rob someone to get it.
Whatever. I'm willing to sacrifice. I will let you know what's up later. Have to nap now
See ya

Room 723

Saying yes
Memory paste
Give me a taste
No time to waste
Night time moving fast
Wine in glass
With one touch
You Gasp
 We want it to last
You make me high
You swear you can fly
Crying we don't want
Goodbyes
Lost track of time
Screaming it's all mine
Girl you're so fine
Just you and me
Blind in passion
Feeling wild and free
Making love
In room
723

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Life

For real Deborah?

Life sure is funny sometimes. It's has a funny way of being you back to you when you think you know yourself but really have no ideal who you have become. I learned some things on this trip. 

I can't even begin to put them in words. Everytime I have to leave her I feel abandon and almost panic. An overwhelming sense of sadness comes over me. I never notice that before. I was almost embarrass to see it in myself. Did I do this in my pass relationships? I'm sorry if I did. Wow, I just wanted to push her away. What the heck Debbie she has to go home, get a whole of yourself. Slap slap. Eyes wide open looking at me. I'm glad to be able to see it and own my fears. This woman has amazed me in so many ways. I have and continue to learn about myself through loving her. 

I thought I would take a moment to write this out before my coward came forward and allow me to pretend like I am perfect in my relationship with the woman I love. Let me say, baby I love you and I don't know how you do it but you still love me in spite of me and my humanness. Thank you for that.

Anyway the weekend is not done yet. I still have time to enjoy the few moments I have left with her.

This is my life so I guess I will live it.

See ya soon

Deborah.

After the rain it's always beautiful.

Sometimes even in Love

Sometimes even in love you are lonely.
You are talking with quiet lips
Words falling on death heart
Whispering nothing flowing through midnight storms.
Reaching for and ear.
Hoping for a validating response.
Sometimes even in love
You are lost
But can't move
Tried to what you desire
Holding on to the past memories
Searching the lonely faces in the crowd.
Sometimes even in love
You died over and over again.
Praying for oneness
Wholeness
Completeness
Never accepting what is
Sometimes even in love

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

It's the weekend

Took off from work today. Needed to get some things done before I go to Dallas for the weekend with my love.
We live in different cities. We look forward to the time we can spend together.  For right now it works, but changes are coming.
Anyway my truck is cleaned and washed, oil change done and bags pack for a fun filled weekend with my wonderful girlfriend and her family.
Man I'm so geeked.
It's been so long since we have seen one another in person it feels like a 1st date.
I'm so nervous.
I feel 16 accept without the pimples. Trying to pick the right clothing. The best shoes. Man, this is crazy. Hopefully I will calm down.
Any how I shall check in with you later and let you know if I changed outfits yet again before I leave.
Right now I need to finish this soup and hot turkey sandwich I ordered at Panera's Bread that's just sitting here in front of me.
See ya soon

Smooches
Deborah

Weekend mood

A weekend treat at Panera's Bread

Our Adventure

Both of us feeling beautiful
in our quiet moment
I hear you scream
 ecstasy in my head
An occasional kiss to lips and neck
Stroking your soul
Caressing your every thought
Making love to your spirit
Grabbing ahold of your back
Feeling you across my body
As I explore your valley
Climb your trees
I'm high
Spinning into climax
Giddy and reeling
Sailing our ship
May I have another
Landing in your
Effection
Exhausted by the
World wind of traveling
Across your wet
River of loves
Sweat dripping
Panting
Scratching
Surrendering
To
Love

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Somewhere Between

Somewhere between moonlight and daybreak you appeared
Magically whispering across my heart
Breezing methodically through my mind
Somewhere between  the sun and the stars
You Pierced my soul with a taste of love
Only your honey bee could make.
Somewhere between midday and nightfall
I surrendered to you invasion
Or was it a invitation to paradise
Somewhere between water and air
We  fell in love by accident
But on purpose
Somewhere between heaven and earth
We seem to capture the attention  of
Roses and Lillie's blooming in spring
As birds float over this love affair.
Somewhere between you and I
Became Us
Somewhere between
I love you
And you loving me
Is life forever
Together
Somewhere between


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

My thoughts 4:25 pm

Have you ever loved someone so much you wanted to be their headache just to be next to them?

I want to be the dust that breezes across your skin while you run in the park

I want to be the cart you grib and push in Walmart.

 I feel like that at this moment. I love you so.

My emotions are out of control when I comes to loving you.

I just want to be near you.

You Can Never

You can never get your sunshine if your are hiding in the closet
You can never experience the rainbow if you are stuck in the clouds
You can never see the future when you are blinded by your past
You can never learn the lesson if you are alway laying blame
You can never learn to live if you are always surviving.
You can never see you if you are pretending to be them.
You can never know reality surviving in denial
You can never feel peace if you keep opening up wounds.
You never have everything when you believe you deserve nothing
Be alive in you heart
Be free in your spirit
Be whole in your soul
Be one with yourself
Then
You can never go backward again.
Live out loud.

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Hero

When you are sad 

Or hurt 

I to get dressed

with my tights and my cape

I want to be your hero

Your super woman.

It collapses my lungs and I can't breathe

When I see

You in pain of life little stains

I can't get you unchained

From your hell spinning 

Jail cell of depression.

I want to be your hero 

Your  band-aid that covers

The scratches and bruises

Your penicillin as it 

Sneaks inside and repairs 

Your heart and oozes in 

Your lung down in the veins 

Your super hero

Your charmer

The knight in shining armor

I can cure you

As you wither away

I beg you to stay 

I want to be your hero.  

More than you know
Your super hero

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

  

Love Note 1:07pm

Love Note 1:07pm

Today I just want to say I love you.  No added sugar to sweeten it up. No preservatives to sustain it. Just a I love you. This I can say with certainty. There is no doubt of a fantasy. No dreams of delusion. I love you.
I will be basking in this joyously delight which is you.
Today my love for you is forever today.
My life began when I met you.
Love
Deborah

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Not About You

Not About You

Something's are old

Something's are new

Some of what I write 

Is true

Sometimes I'm happy 

Sometimes I'm blue

Sometimes I come

To your rescue

Sometimes my words

Leave not a cue

My feelings

My passion

Just to name 

A few

Most times the 

Things I write

Are referring to me

It's Not about you.

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c) 2014

Should I

Should I write you again
Should I let this end
Should I kiss your lips good bye
Should I welcome tears of our last cry
Should I hold you in my heart
Should I let this be a beginning or the Start
Of the created masterpiece in my head
Should I continue our love fantasy instead
Should I write you another song
Can My love for you go on
Should I pick out our wedding date
Should I just sit here and wait
Should I see you one more time
Should I make this my last rhyme
Should I
Maybe the next
Life time 

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker.
(c) 2014

Helpless

I'm helpless it seems
Because I'm in love with you.
If the truth be told
It's  strong and grabbing
Captivating and bold
I finding myself fighting

The temptation of melting 

Sliding into heaven as I 

Have come to know with you

Killing me softly with your

Tender lips

My surrender
My heart beats

With
The wonderous  moments
Of  us
I'm helpless

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

Love Evaluation

Although my word run deep

I can't find the reality to make 

You see

I bleed fountains and rivers

Running

Poring

Draining me 

Creating mixed

Feelings of lust

And love

Confusion and delusions

Chao in my sanity

And all the above

Drunk in emotion

Staggering and slurred

Falling but standing

What's all the commotion?

Today I love you

Tomorrow You won't 

Yesterday I cared

You love my hair

You make me high

Caught in two worlds

I said you can fly

Out of reach

And you can't it.

Crazy in love

I should just

Abort this

Passion for love

This feeble attempt

To satisfy my soul

Of contentment and peace

With this desire to be love

Forget all the pain

I'm exempt, 

I give up

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c)2014

My Delusion

My delusion

Life makes a turn

Leaves falling from trees

Birds flying south

These words I spit out

On paper make it seem

Like roses and tulips 

Paranoid and scared 

Wake up from this 

Dream

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c)2014

Not Yours

Not Yours

Feel like I've been hit with a hammer.
Full of myself
Like Vogue or Glamor
I was alone and needy
How dare I want all of you
So selfish and greedy
Wanting to hear from you
Craving your voice
A  call
Or text
Maybe some sex
Anticipating the I love you
You always softly whisper
I would say I missed you
As my body began to shiver
And as time pass I was about
To give up
Out of the blue you called
With hello's and good day
Again my heart melted
As the smile traced my face
We chatted a minute
Alway limited and quick
I'm not your wife
I'm only a side chick

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014

When You Said

When you Said

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

I can hear it in your voice

When she calls your phone

Your giggle, your laugh

Your oh so Soul fabulous tone

Didn’t you mean her?

When you said let’s give it a try

Now I’m here our love is a lie

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

No more Good mornings, I love you

How was your day?

Committed and faithful

Secret emotional affair

I smell the aroma in the air

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

Full of betrayal

Mocking my love

for your fairy tail 

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

As I kiss your lips

Tender and soft

A vision her I is what I caught

It's In your stare

As I look in your eyes

You can no longer hide

Masquerade or disguise

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

The thoughts of her caressing your skin

The votes are in

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

Waiting for that day

When I hear you say

When I said I loved you

I really meant her

I won’t be so hurt

with my head in the dirt

I Had time to prepare

from your emotional affair

Of what might be

I can now see

When you said you loved thee

You didn't mean me

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(

I Am

I am

When you think your life is to hard and nothing seem to be going right.
When you feel like no one cares. 
Stop, and say to yourself: 
I am a winner cause I have Survived. 
I am Great cause I kept going. 
I am Beautiful cause I have known ugliness.... 
I am Perfect in my own skin no matter what the shade. I am Free cause my chains have been broken. I am Joyful because of my sadness.
I am
I am ME.
I am Love. 

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
 (c)2014

I can't Breathe

 I need air

A cool breeze

of you

To blow by me

Trying to inhale

The yesterday you

Since

You left 

Hyperventilating 

Fading

Trying to catch 

My breath

Gasping

Come back to me

Running out of

Oxygen

I need you to

Survive

I look into 

My heart

And saw 

You

My need 

To 

Breathe

Please

Stay

I 

Can't 

Breathe

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c)2014

One night Stand

One night Stand

I woke up believing 

I wanted you to be 

my one night stand 

I want to be your 

Pillow talk 

Your morning dew

Your sweat in the night

Your Tossing covers

Your nightmare 

Your wet dream

Your morning breath

I woke up

Thinking I 

I want to be

Your One Night Stand

Forever

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c) 2014

I'm Yours

I'm Yours

If I were blind 

I could still see your beauty

The aroma of you 

lingers in my now

Reaching for your hand

I become mesmerized 

Your mocha chocolate favored skin

Sweeter than cotton candy

My chocolate drop

Sing me a lullaby 

Your voice flies me to the moon

Pluto and Mars

You take me to paradise 

Then to heaven 

In a moment

I'm digging you

As you invade

My universe

Coloring through

My soul

Pink and yellow

Black and green

Fading in my skin

I'm craving 

Your essence 

Breathing 

Your flowers

In full bloom

Trusting 

My weakness 

Of allowing 

You to love me

I'm your.

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

Love Note 10:18am

Love Note 10:18am

Dearest Wonder,

Today when I awoke I realize how vulnerable I was to you. It frighten me.

 Yet I continue to run to everything that is you. 

Exceeding my own limits. 

Expanding my universe to get more of you.

Is this really love?

Today I choose to love you completely.

Not just love you, but to be in love with you.

With all of me.

With all I have.

Love 

Deborah.

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c)2014

Subliminal Emotions

Subliminal Emotions

I got a mental disease

It's called love

It's causes me to shake

As I awake

My prize

Singing early morning sunrise

A taste of lemon cake.

I have a mental disease

I believe it's love

I sweat

I shake and shiver

My warmth in a Minnesota winter

My cloud and rain

I would climb your rainbow

I'm completely insane

I got a mental disease

I know it is love

It's infection grows

It makes me weak

And weary

Spreading through

My body like

a cancerous soul

I developed a disease

I'm sure it's love

Caught up in the rapture

Is what I am

My aphrodisiac

My Oyster and clams

I am my mental disease

I flow like the river

Deeper than the ocean

I have mental disease

My subliminal emotions.

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

Reality Break

Reality Break

Making changes is hard

Standing still is harder

New is scary

Old is familiar

Wounds Bleed

Love is a healer

Broken in pieces

Torn to shreds

Realities of life

Can turn you

Black and blue

Suitcase in hand

One last I love

You

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

(c)2014

Crossroad

Crossroad 

I am at the crossroad. 

You move 

pass the pain

Pass the struggle 

Pass the wanting

Into

Freedom and peace

No ropes or handcuffs

No chains or jail cells

Just you and the 

Sky

Moon 

And 

Stars

I'm at the

Cross road.

Time for me.

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

Love Note 6:51pm.

Love Note 6:51pm


Yes, I love you.
Since this morning, I haven't stop thinking about you.  I stop and wait to see what my next thought about you will be. I drift into the wonderland of eagles flying high above the clouds. I am in a blissful delight everyday I wake up in your arms.
You're my prize.
And I love you
Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker
(c) 2014