Love Note 8:49am

Dear lover,

My fingers are tingling at the thought of writing about you.
I'll see you in my ink as my pen create your masterpiece.
I'll paint a picture of you with my paint brush of love.
I will sketch the outline of my Mona Lisa so perfect that the rain clouds would smile
Splashing and coloring
And Tattooing my way in your heart

My love note for you

Until my pen meets your paper 

Again

I adore you.

Yours Only

Deborah R. Shaw 

The Silent Stalker

My Baby Has

My Baby Has

My baby has the prettiest smile

It warm my heart

It's smooth my soul

My baby has the brightest spirit 

She cleans my cluttered mind

And Wipes my tears

My baby has the biggest heart

As I watch her carry the burdens

I can say for certain 

My baby has the longest Love

It fits me like a glove

Pure as a dove

Sent from above

My baby has the silkiest skin

From beginning to end

It should be a sin

My baby has the sweetest kisses

From her soft perfectly shaped lips 

My baby has what I've been searching for.

Love

Kindness 

Beauty 

Patients

Style

Class

My baby has everything

My baby has 

Me

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

Morning Praise

Good morning, 

I'm up to early

Went to bed to late

But I woke up alive

And because of that

I feel great.

I'm still of sound mind

And my day might 

Seem rough

I still say

Thank God

He's Blessing Me

Hallelujah 

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

Lead or Follow

Lead or Follow

You can aloud
Your pain
To lead
You
To
A lonely
Existence
Or
You
Can
Follow
It
To
Amazing
Greatness
It
Is
Up
To
You
Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

I Shall

Dear Me

I shall see you on the moon. 

I shall see you in the clouds. 

I shall see you flying across the sky. 

You are free.

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

I'm Packing

I'm packing

Not sure where I'm going
But
I'm packing
Not
Taking
My past pain
Or
Resentments
I'm packing
To a new space
But it
Won't
Erase
The memories
Of
Shame and guilt
But
I'm packing
My new adventures
And attitude
I'm packing
My healed heart
And leaving
My broken dreams
I'm packing
To follow
My paradise
My heaven
My everything
I'm packing
Throwing away
All my useless
Thing
Bags I've saved
Full of tears
Over the
Years
I'm packing
And moving on
I'm packing
Cause its
Time to go
I'm packing
Not looking back
Never to return
I'm packing
It's that simple
Speeding to
My new life
Free from
The old one
I'm packing
Good bye
Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Empty

Empty

As I lay down to sleep

Saying my prayers

I notice

Your not here

Sliding in what

Was the comfort

Of this now 

Lonely existent

Of where you

Use to be

Memories 

Floor my 

Mind

Me holding 

Your hand

Us making plans

I stand lifeless 

Crying

She's gone

Wake me 

Please

Let this pain cease

As my heart

Aches

Find me 

My love of yesterday 

That's run

Away

Taking

With her 

Pieces

Of me

As I lay down to sleep

And say my prayers

I notice

Emptiness 

Of 

What use

To be 

You

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

Writing You

My fingers move across this page with a light touch

As though I'm kissing you

My hands stroke my pen

Like I caressed your body

Under the moon

My arms help draw the picture of the memories of those 

Passionate nights

Of

Love making 

Dream creating

Breathe taking

Filled

Ecstasy 

My eyes envision us

Our future

As finish 

This

Masterpiece 

Of our 

Love affair

My ears

Hear your 

Voice

Calling me

As I stroke

Your pages

Writings

Turning

Into

Realities 

Of Us

Stroking

Inking

And 

Writing 

By way

To 

Your 

Heart.

Let me

Write you

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

The Silent Stalker.

Be Gentle with Me

Be gentle With Me

Be gentle with me

Is what you said from the start

Not know that I fell in Love with you

and you had my heart

Be gentle with me

You were afraid to let go

I said relax and just let it flow

You said be gentle with me

Secret forbidden friend

touching you is so right

A down right sin

be gentle with me

be still and don't run

be gentle be me

I just want to see you cum

be gentle with me

from head to toe

Be gentle with me

My ebony princess

with your morning glow

Be gentle with me

Fantasy or reality

That's what it is

Be gentle with me

from beginning to end

Be gentle with me

I'm done

I win

D.R. Shaw.

The Silent Stalker

Sweet Addiction

The sweetest thing I've ever known
I feel it all in my bones.
You have become a bad habit
I need you and got to have it.
Shoot you up in my veins,
To keep me from going completely
insane.
I'll snort you in my nose,
white or brown anything goes.
Put you under my tongue and let it melt
let me dream of how it felt
I'll roll you up and smoke you
Put you in a bong and inhale you.
Dip you in liquid so I can get higher
light me up and set me on fire.
Dry or with water, I will swallow you
one ain't enough, I got to have two.
I got to have you
I will do anything
I will sell my prize possessions
everything I own.
I would walk for miles to be with you,
You're my lover, my best friend, and my bitch
without you I have pains, I scream, I shake and itch.
So I seek you in me every hour of the day,
Don't leave my body is what I pray.
Feel lost without you
No rehab can cure me
Can't detox from you
Still craving you
My sweet addiction
Forever addicted to you

The Silent Stalker
D.R.Shaw

Sometimes

Sometimes I need to scream your name

Sometimes I feel my love for you is insane

Sometime I'm high as a mountain

At the thought of drinking from your fountain

Sometime this feel like make believe

The late night phone calls, our little reality

Sometimes I miss you while I'm still there

This needing and crazy little love affair

Sometimes I'm weak and full of doubt

And then you assure me again with that whisper from your mouth

Sometimes we both break and crumble and fall

Sometimes we don't know how to handle it all

Sometime we just look at each other  and wonder and stare

I kiss you 

You kiss me

Then you stoke my hair

Sometimes we feel like we don't deserve each other

Still hanging on like silly little teenage lovers

Sometimes I just sit and wonder

How I crave you and need you

What is this hunger?

Sometimes we just need to sit and let our love be

Have faith of that tiny mustard seed

Deborah Shaw

The Silent Stalker
(c)2014

In the Meantime

In The meantime,

I dream about us
Think about us
Wonder about us

In the meantime,

I look in your in eyes
In the picture you sent
How beautiful you are
Smiling back at me

In the meantime,

I know you need and desire to be loved
Afraid of taking the risk for happiness

In the meantime,

I silently wipe your tears of loneliness
I hold your hand
I long to embrace you
Shiver at the thought of our first kiss

In the meantime

I wait on
I wonder by
I think of
I cry for
I hold to
I watch You
I understand that
I whisper your name softly

In the meantime.

I Love you
In the meantime.

The Silent Stalker
D.R. Shaw 

These Simple Words"........March 2009

In the simple words of my own tongue I care for you.

With these simple words I hope to open your heaven and bring you sunny days
With these simple words Let you soul cry with joy as my lips sing the melody of my undying love for you,
with these simple words, may I bring a beat to your heart that the whole world can dance with you
With these simple words, I paint the Mono Lisa of my beloved you across the sky that will make the stars turn to diamonds just to be next to you
With these simple, I love you never seems to be enough
With these simple words, I shall learn all the languages near and far so I may always speak the tongue of thy love
With these simply words, I tell of the fire you started in my heart that has moved across my mind, and flowing through every vain that set my body aflame
With these simple words, I howl at the midnight of my loneliness,waiting for daybreak to shine over the earth that is you
Sorry if I am bothering you. My mind won't be still.
With these simply words, I hunt for the humanities of my spirit
The wholeness of love
The gentleness of your touch
The purity of your innocents
The greatness of your mind
With these simple words, you say I am more than a weed growing in concrete, but a field of purple lilies playing in the wind
With these simple words, I beg you to never leave, for you have become my family of generations. My tree can not survive,Without its roots
With these simple words, I love you, embrace you, share with you, adore you, inspire you, kiss you, lay with you, save you, cry with you, laugh with you, pray with you, grow with you, end with you, eat with you, bathe with you, sleep with you, drink with you, grow old with you, stay young with you, touch with you, devour you, ignite you.
With these simple words, I thank you.
With the simple words
These words simple
Simple, are my words
Words, are simple
The End of my Words

The Silent Stalker
D.R.Shaw 

Intimate Times ...........March 2009

Intimate time in my mind is:
Us crying about today’s hurt and excited about tomorrow’s possibilities.
Intimate time in my mind is:
As you reach over to touch my hand ever so lightly which let me know you are always at my side.
Intimate time in my mind is:
Focusing on your kiss as it brings sunshine to my smile.
Intimate time in my mind is:
Becoming aroused in last night interlude, remembering your willingness to be pleased
Intimate time in my mind is:
Your rising insecurities unleashed as I whisper I love you again in your ear.
Intimate time in my mind is:
You laugh at me falling in love with you continuously every time we speak on the phone.
Intimate time in my mind is:
Noticing your arm holding my waist as I lay sleeping
Intimate time in my mind is:
You calling just to hear my voice and hanging up
Intimate time in my mind is:
Your kiss
My touch
Your need
My comfort
Your smile
My giggle
Your insecurities
My reality
Your grace
My embrace
Your never
My forever
Intimate time in my mind is:
Us

The Silent Stalker
D.R.Shaw 

A Love Note to My Love

A Love Note to my love:

You bring joy to my heart
I will follow you to the end of the earth.
See you in my travels
I do not want to go.
But I go with the scent of  you lingering in my thoughts.
Holding onto the magic
As our lips touched for the first time.
Not sure if our past will ever meet again
I begin to seduce you with me eyes
Holding onto the lines of your body
Embracing the Mona Lisa
You are painted across my memory
I kiss you
I caress your peach
I devour your fruit
Our love making becomes a thunderstorm
twisting and turning
Moaning and screams
Until dawn
You rest in my arms
Until I kiss your forehead
And slip away
Into the Morning dew
Until next time
My love travel.
I'm gone

Sign
Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Love Letter

LOVE LETTER

Dearest Love,

Let me start by saying I love you. As I sit with my pen in my hand I can only think of all these words that come to mind I just need to write down about you.
Words like beautiful courageous wonderful and kind.
You have turned my world upside down. I find myself wanting to be vulnerable with you. I wrote this love letter to say thank you for loving me. I finally found a heart that has been able to reach my own heart. You melted  the steel cage that resisted all other weapons. You found the holes in it and built a chain of links, just so you could lock it to only you.
You embraced my emptiness.
You filled my unknown neediness I have. I ask myself, how could this be? Someone as wonderful as you to choose me.
I decided to except you love in spite of my insecurities.
I decided to except your kindness and patience.
I decided to show you all my flaws
Finally understanding I no longer have to be perfect.
You have aloud me to see its okay to need and want to be loved.
I don't know if I deserve you or not. But what I do know is I have you now.
I am willing.
I am ready
I am able
I am captivated by you.
I breathe you in my slumber.
This is my love letter to you.

Yours Truly,


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker.

Emotional Prison

Emotional Prison

I don't ever 

want to be free again

Now that I have

Been enslaved by 

My own 

Willingness 

To be 

In love 

With you

I want and need

To be held

Captive

By 

This never ending

Web of emotions

Surrounding 

My soul

Freedom can

Eluded my thoughts

If it mean 

Being without 

You

I shall build

A private prison 

Of tulips 

Around my heart

Just of you

A hostage

A captive

A prisoner 

Enslave me

Control me

Own me

This love I have

Is only

For you

Lock me love

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker 

Too Early

Too Early

Thinking where were you
But 
You're here
Want to keep you near me
But
I have to go
My paradise 
My heaven
My drink of water
In summertime 
It's to early
For this
My prize
My moonlight 
My last embrace
You feel so right
It's too early 
For this
Love has me 
Writing of our
Love advengers
Struggling to
This we deserve 
It
It's too early 
For this
Let me blast
In my now
Of you
Can't stop 
Thinking
You are my 
My air
My comfort
My perfect 
Imperfection 
It's too early 
But
I can't stop
Breathing you
It's too early
Good morning
My love
It's to early


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Still

Still

I still love you

I still want you

I still need you

Since 

The first day

Refusing the 

Last day

Let it 

Be 

Today

Again

Let me 

Love you

Now

Again

Tomorrow 

And always

Still

Deborah.

The silent Stalker

The First Time

Today 
I will begin to love me for the first time
Then I wont have to waste my mind
hurting you
lying to me
worrying you
killing you and me
destroying me
backstabbing you
crying about me
waiting on you
blaming you
shaming me
hitting you
Today
 I will begin to love me for the first time
So I can free my mind
I will be able to reach the sky
To see a new high
Then I wont do these things I believe
are right
 but wrong 
plant a seed
Today I will love me
Then I will share
holding you
holding me
caring for you
loving you
talking
about the wonder gift you are.


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent stalker

My Pen

My Pen

My pen speaks volumes
Of my pains
My joys
My triumphs
My failures
My pen speaks to the souls lost in darkness
Seeking answers to the questions not asked
My pen holds ink to spread across endless paper
My hand can’t stop writing of the emotions that are ever
Present in my mind.
My pen is the band aide that covers the many wounds
I have sustained though the years of living this life
My pen has many chapters and books
My pen is a legacy of my struggle
My pen is a gift from God
A light that restores the emptiness
In my heart that aches with the need to let go
Of my past, present, and unforeseen future
My pen speaks on paper quietly, whether than
The wickedness of my untamed tongue
My pen holds me, when you can’t
My pen loves me when you won’t
My pen comforts me
My pen never disappoints me
My pen wipes my tears
My pen has kept me from harm
My pen is the glue that’s holds me to you
My pen directs me
To the wonderland in my mind
Peace
Joy
Love
Blessings
Music
You and me
Us and them
The many and the few
I love my pen

D.R.Shaw
Silent Stalker 

When you Said

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

I can hear it in your voice

When she calls your phone

Your giggle, your laugh, your

Soul fabulous tone

Didn’t you mean her?

When you said let’s give it a try

Now I’m here our love is a lie

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

No more Good mornings,
 I love you

How was your day?

Committed and faithful

Secret emotional affair

I smell the aroma in the air

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

Full of betrayal

Your crumbs of her trail

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

As I kiss your lips

Tender and soft

A vision her I caught

In your stare

As I look in your eyes

You can no longer disguise

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

The thoughts of her caressing your skin

The votes are in

When you said you loved me

Didn’t you mean her?

Waiting for that day

When I near you say

When I said I loved you

I really meant her

I won’t be hurt

From the dirt

Had time to prepare

And was aware

Of what might be

I can now see

That

When you said you loved me

You really meant her?


D.R.Shaw

The Silent Stalker 

Favorite Color

Oh my baby,
My favorite color is you.
I dream of you daily
I made love to you last night
When I close my eyes I see only you
I can taste you in my spirit
I smell you in my soul
My success is because you are in my future
I heal my wounds with just your touch
My favorite Color is you

D.R.Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Human Limits

Human Limits

The soft touch of you 

lingers on my fingers

as I

bleed in my heart to give you all my love

But my human limits

My thoughts are only of you
Of all beautiful things

Under the clouds

My human limits

Every song reminds me of you

Because you are my song
 Yet, I lack of lyrics 

My human Limits

Word I write about you seems endless 
Though 

Somehow I become speechless 

My human limits

Your spirit cleanse me Like water fall

Drowning me in love

Bathing me passion

Completing me in happiness

Restoring life

into my lonely soul
But

My human limits

Alter  my ability

to hold my spirit free

Yet I crave 

 Essence  of you

I will fight 

For you and I

And our love

But

My Human Limits

D.R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

At this Moment

At the Moment.

At the moment at appears I'm lost without the smile that brings me joy.

At the moment.

 I am blinded by the pain of missing you

At this moment 

I cry

At the Moment

silent of your voice

 The missing morning kiss

At the moment

I miss you

At the moment

I am lost

D.R. Shaw 

The Silent Stalker

Finger Strokes

As my fingers stroke these words

I'm reminded 

of how you have left your mark 

across my heart.

Lingering

In

Overwhelming

Need

Of 

More of you

As I stroke

These pages

You your 

Love

I

Grab onto 

Hope

Everlasting

Promise 

Happiness 

Sunshine

And

Togetherness 

As I write

Only you

Fill 

This

Pen

I hold.

You created

A softness 

In me

For you

Writing your

Name across 

The sky

As my fingers

Stroke

These

Pages

Of 

You

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker.

Let it be said

Let it be said

It's been said 

I live my life out loud.

It's been said

I don't show my

Emotions

It's been say

I wouldn't amount

To anything

It's been said

But 

I wear you in my 

Heart

I was loyal to 

Our friendship

I struggle with 

Saying these 

Things

Let it be said

With my writing

Your friend was

My comfort

It gave me some

Peace.

Let it be said

I valued you

Respected you

And love you

Let it be said

I will miss 

You

Let this be 

Said

From 

my lips 

to

This paper

Let it be said

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

Lost in You

I was Lost In You

I was lost in you
Your sweet lies that fed my fantasy of finding my soul mate
I adored the smell of your scent
Your carmel skin is what I desired
I close my eyes
and I could feel you touching me
Me touching you
The dreams of walking hand in hand in the parks
but your sweet lies captured my innocents
Of not knowing you had no intentions
For fulfilling the lies you so easy spit across your lips.
I was game pond it your game of chess to dominate
Humiliate and glorify your own ego.
But I adored you
Your unknowing lies made me
Believe
Hope
Laugh
Wonder
Love
Dream
of the you and I
That in reality could Never be.
I believed in you because you ask me to
Not knowing you truth was a sweet lie.
I was lost in  you
I adored you
I believed in you
And your unknown lies.
Not anymore
No longer chained by your deception
of holding me captive under false pretenses.
I am free from my own fantasies of you
Alone with my thoughts of no more
Dreams
Hope
Laughter
Love
Wonder
of you
Or your lies
Your Sweet Little Lies
I was lost in you.

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

New journey

This is for those of you who don't see the light at the end of the tunel.
This is for the people who are losing hope.
This is for the people who believe they can not change.
This is for the Dreamers

This poem is for my friend Mark Jenkins who has had his share of battles and persevered
You have taught me that the only time success comes before work is in the dictionary.
This is for you my Friend.
I love you.

My New Journey

I'm not saying it anymore.
I'm just doing it now
I'm not staying in the same place
My spirit has done its time here and it is time for me to grow and move on.
I can see clearly the new journey ahead.
I have been preparing for this moment without knowingg it.
But today my spirit is ready and I am willing.
With my mind Clear
And my new path laid before me
I take the first step forward.
No time to look back
Time step at a time I will move.
No matter if I stumble
And I am bound to fall
But if I have to crawl,
I shall continue to move forward.
I know I can get there if I choose
Holding on to the light I see Far Far ahead of me.

But I shall get there
Hold on
Grab on
Hang on

I'm on my way.

D.R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker.

Victim

Victim Beauty

As I look at you
I cannot hate me,
be jealous of me
not want to know me or be by my side.
I am a victim.
Not a victim of scars and guilt
Not a victim of your circumstance
Not a victim of pain or heartache
Not a victim of blame or shame
Not a victim of hurtful words or stones
Just a victim of me
and only me
I am a victim of my own provocative beauty.
Inside and out.
A victim of me.
No binders
No limits
No cages
To hold all thats inside of me.
Yes, I am a victim
A victim of my own
provocative
Beauty.
And for this
I am Free
to be
A
Victim
of
my own
Provocative
Beauty.
D.R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker.

The Pledge

I pledge my love to you

I pledge my love to you
Cause thats all I have to give
When it is all said and done
I only have love
The roses i bought you are dead
The ring i gave you is old
But my love for you new
with each passing day
I fall in love with you again
The season have changed
but my love for you is the same
I write love songs to you each day
So I may remember the melody in you
have brought to my heart
I will never be the same
And for this
I pledge my love to you
Yesterday
Today
Tomorrow
and the day after that.
I pledge my love to you
You are my sunshine and rain
My joy and pain
My colors in the rainbow
My warmth in the winter snow
Everything that you are
I desire to become
Joy
Love
Kindness and peace
And for this
I pledge my love to you.
I vow
To always love you


D.R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

A Love note to my Love

A Love Note to my love:

 You bring joy to my heart
and
I will follow you to the end of the earth.
I See you in my travels
I don't want to leave
Yet
I have to go
The scent of  you of you lingering in my thoughts.
Holding onto what was magic as our lips touched for the first time.
Not sure if our past will ever meet again
I begin to seduce you with me eyes
holding on to the lines of your body
Embracing the Mona Lisa
you have painted across my memory
I kiss you
I caress your peach
as touch your fruit
Our love making becomes a thunderstorm
twisting and turning
Moaning and screams
Until dawn
You rest in my arms
I kiss your forehead
and slip away
Until next time
My love travel.
I gone

Sign
Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Dear poetry

Dear poetry

Here I stand,

flawed and imperfect

Yet

my love for her is 

pure and good. 

I can only 

speak or write of my 

feelings of wholeness. 

As I read these many words that seem to flow 

like running water 

coming from my pen, 

all I can do is cry. 

I need her 

to live.

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

Sexy Lips

I remember so well how we first met
I was painfully excited can't ever forget
We laugh and giggles all night long
I remember singing that corny song
I looked in your eyes and knew you were the one
My rain and the stars my shining sun
Your brown skin made me Smelt
Couldn't believe the joy I felt
Dinner and  a movie
hanging with friends
This is how our love affair begin
Your golden eyes captured me
Oh how I love thee
But I knew for sure
With our first kiss
The moment you Touch me
With your sexy Lips
D.R.Shaw
The Silent Stalker 

Love Pain

Love pain

Many people can love me

But

Only you have 

Loved me 

Like

I needed

To be

And 

Not 

How I 

Wanted.

I discovered 

My wants

Are 

Never ending

And 

Always

Changing

You 

Love is 

Consistent

And 

Stubborn 

It's

Bullies 

Me

Back 

Into

Acceptance.

About 

Want I 

Want it

Then I

Don't 

How I

Desire it

Then I 

Run

Bring me 

To

My own

Reality

Because you

We're good

At 

Loving Me.

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

If only for you

If only for You

If my heart beats 

only for you, 

then I am a slave to your rhythm.

I am a instrument of 

Your musical genius 

Waiting for that next note

The sound that pierces 

My every vein.

Creeps through

My vessels

Strengthens 

My bones

If my heart 

Beats 

Only 

For 

You

Let me be

Your song

Your melody

At midnight

You're lyrics

At sunrise

Aloud me 

To flow 

Across your

Finger tips 

As you 

Play my tune

If my heart

Beats only

For 

You

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

Wake up Note

Time after time

I try to 

Erase my mind

With the thoughts of you 

Chasing my soul.

I tried to remember 

When I surrendered

Of being 

To this thing 

Called love

You fit

Like a glove

You slipped in smooth

And easy

Confused 

Love's 

Making me dizzy

Weak

And somewhat 

Meek

Who would have 

Thought

That I would

Get caught

You slated my 

Heart 

From the 

Very start

With that

First 

Phone call 

Kicking down

Every emotional wall

Who gave you

My key

Enslaved by

Your love

Can't You see

A prisoner

It's true

Without bars

Or being 

Sentenced

Another silly 

Love note

Of you

As I 

Awoke.

Just thought you

Should know

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker

A Night Thought

A Night thought

Pondering the blitz 

Of your love

Returning to me

Again and again

Seeping in and 

Around my heart

Drowning me.

Captivating my soul

Soothing my aching 

Need to be wanted

I'm amazed and dazed

By the overwhelming need 

To

Possess you

Own you

Enslave you

Only

For me

To 

Care and love

Fulfilling  all 

The fairy tales and fantasies

That are 

Only told in

Books and movies

I want to be that 

Love song

Then and now

And

The one that

Has yet to be 

Written 

My night thoughts 

Of you

Takes me to the moon 

And back

Stopping

at each star

To breathe in

The universe I 

Now share with

You.

You have torn

Down

My walls of shame 

And pain

And brokenness 

Healing the scars

Of past

Heartaches

Now my focus

Is the joy

Needing you

Needing me

Needing us

To be

Complete and whole

Just my 

Love Story

My soul

Crying in the night

Reaching and holding

My night thoughts

Of

You and I 

Deborah R. Shaw

The Silent Stalker 

Unknown Love 11/22/14

Here you are
Imperfect and good
Waiting for us to happen
Surprizingly refreshing
My heart is beating a melody in you
You are love
You are my future
You are everything I fought against
Someone to hold me
Someone who will care for me when I can't .
I thought I was okay with my loniness of not knowing of a you
How foolish was my heart
You are love
You are my future
You have made my steem of cloudy days seem filled with spring flowers
I am captivated by knowing you are out there
Breathe into me the love I've never known.
You are my love
You are my future
And I'm so in love with you
Come to me
I await your embrace.
I grave you
I discovered I need you in my soul
You are my life
You are my world
Love Unknown
Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Untitled 12/01/14

It's raining outside
My heart is heavy
With thoughts of you
Your tender soul brings faith to my existence
You heard my calls of hurt and desperation
Knowing I am lost
You saved me from me

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Sometimes

Sometimes

Sometimes I want you to feel
special
Needed
Wanted
Loved
Appreciated
Desired
Validated
Heard
Sometimes
I'm confused as to how to do this for you.
Sometimes
I ache for your touch
Your smile
That sparkle that I can only get from you
Sometimes
You bring me to tears with your sensitive spirit.
Sometimes
I feel abandon and lost when I can't hear your voice
Sometimes
I'm Secretly tortured my longing for you
Sometimes
Just maybe you could love me
Forever
Sometimes
I want to hold your hand
Make us together plans
Live happy ever after
In my daydream wonderland
Sometimes
I think about us
Sometimes
I just dream about
Want to be with you
Desire to be in love with you
Want to marry you
Sometimes
Its just about you
Sometimes.
Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

I breathe

I breathe

I breathe the air waiting for your scent to revive my soul
I breathe knowing you are near yet untouchable.
I breathe inhaling all that is you.
Not knowing who you are
I breathe
Your love
Your tenderness
I breathe us
Being one
A unit
Captivatingly intertwine in our love.
I breathe
I am better and and stronger with you
Your protector
Your caretaker
Your pieces of your missing puzzle.
I breathe
This endless dream of you
And I and you
I breathe
In
And out
Of you
And me
I breathe
Our beginning
I breathe
Us holding hands in the park
And embracing in the dark
I breathe
I breathe
I breathe
In and out
You
I breathe

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker.

My New Journey

My New Journey

I'm not saying it anymore.
I'm just doing it now
I'm not staying in the same place
My spirit has done its time here and it is time for me to grow and move on.
I can see clearly the new journey ahead.
I have been preparing for this moment without knowing it.
But today my spirit is ready and I am willing.
With my mind focused
And my new path laid before me
I take the first step forward.
No time to look back
Time step at a time I will move.
No matter if I stumble
And I am bound to fall
But if I have to crawl,
I shall continue to move forward.
I know I can get there if I choose
Holding on to the light I see Far Far ahead of me.
But I shall get there
Hold on
Grab on
Hang on

I'm on my way.

D.R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker.

When You Get Here

When you get here
I shall began to live.
Gliding my vision of what it is like to be loved
When I get here I will extend my heart that has been wrapped in sorrow waiting for that truth which is you to arrive
When you get here
You will no longer feel the abandonment emotions of love passing you by yet again.
When you get here.
Your completeness is assured by my many mistakes before you that had made me whole and prepared me for you
When you get here
You know I love you before I speak it from my lips
When you get here
Ours hearts will beat systematically together
Beat
Beat...beat
Beat..
Pause
Butterflies
Beat..beat
Beat
When you get here
I shall caress your soul with my spirit.
When you get here
Our love will play out like the story book
My partner
My lover
My friend
And Soulmate
My everything
When you get here
My words shall be useless
But my action will reflex the direction our pledge of oneness needs to go.
When you get here
I will be waiting
When you get here
My existing will stop
And my life will begin
When you get here.


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Life

Life's journey can bring you a lot of things.
Only you can choose how much pain or joy you want to endure.
Be enough in your perfect imperfections.
Embrace your life and your journey.
No regrets.
Be who you are.
You are Enough


Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker.

My Seasons

I don't want a someone's body to get me warm for the winter season.
I don't want someone to look cute with in the summer.
I don't need someone to be my spring so I can enjoy the flowers.
I don't want someone to grab onto in the fall.
I want someone to share my four seasons for a life time.

Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker

Scars

Theses scars I wear
Don't compare
To the hurt and pain
From me going insane
Of living my journey of which I've been given
the crosses I bare
With my gray hair
is a reflection
of the infection
wounds healed
and forgiven
let it be written
I have been smitten
with to just surviving
but by enjoying livin
My scars
Remind me I am a gift
Not a burden
A prize
Not a shot of bourbon
To be drink and swallowed
But to stay on the path no other can follow
My Scars
Were designed
To make me kind
Gentle and humble
For those times when fall
Or stumble
My scars
have set me free
happily I
walk and reach for the clounds
and the sky
no longer ashame
out of the closet
No need to hide
My scars
are me
let your be you
Accept them
and find peace
let you Value incease
My scars
Are me
I no longer RUN
It is Done
I have Won
My Scars
can make me weak
I can't accept defeat
I stand proud in
my jouney
cause though all my pain
I'm finally love what has become
ME
Deborah R. Shaw
The Silent Stalker.